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Tuesday, November 29, 2011

2 Week Wait

Last month, B and I decided to ttc after our miscarriage in June/July/August. Last time, the 2ww was nothing. It breezed by and was ended by AF. This month......Well, that's a different story. AF was expected yesterday. I have no signs of her impending presence. So, tonight after work, I will pee on a stick. Unless she shows up at work.

I haven't really had an urge to check. Mostly because we have a house rule: No poas until the second day of a missed period. So, I pretty much expect AF to show up as scheduled. Now there's no AF. I'm not sure what to do. I want to take every pregnancy test in the drug store RIGHT NOW! I'm not sure I can wait until after work. I might be freaking pregnant right now. I don't know what to do with that information.

I'm so confused and nervous. I'm nervous that I am pregnant and that I am not pregnant. I feel like either outcome will be either a disappointment or full of anxiety. I know I will be excited to be pregnant, but I'm scared to death to be pregnant.

It probably doesn't help that my assistant keeps walking into my office with her pregnant belly hanging out of her shirt.

So, anyone want to take bets on if I poas before B gets home from work?

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