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Monday, September 19, 2011

Southern Family Values

On Friday, I was having a chat with my mom. I do this very frequently. She again mentioned that she was shocked at how rude I was to my mother-in-law a few months ago. This was very upsetting to me. I not only feel like I'm doing the best I can regarding my emotions, but also I've grown very impatient (almost intolerant) of everyone else's lack of consideration. I realized that I've found myself thinking that if someone isn't considerate to me, it's probably okay if I make them feel awkward or am less than considerate to them.

The problem with this isn't that my mom is upset by it. It's that I'm upset that I have started feeling this way. If everyone believes they have the right to be inconsiderate just because someone else wasn't nice to them, the whole world will be inconsiderate with no hope. Also, I started sounding like a spoiled brat with an entitlement complex. These realizations of course, took almost all weekend for me to grasp (with help from B, of course). We agree that my impatience is understandable, but it's also something I need to work on. Besides, I'm sure everyone has good intentions even if they are misguided.

I was raised to be a sweet, charming, southern lady. Well, my sweet and charming has been noticeably missing the last few months. It's time for me to get back to the basics and practice my good ole southern family values.

In an effort to do this, my mantra has become:  My actions are not determined by the actions of others.

Saturday, September 3, 2011


So, I'm a pretty private person. I realize this blog and twitter puts it all out there, but I don't know y'all and you don't know me. Except in this way. These have been places where I feel comfortable sharing the things I don't tell my friends or my mom.

Now I realize that I may have outted myself (Thanks, Bessie. It's not your fault. I am thankful!). My twitter app allows me to post to multiple accounts. When I post a picture, it saves the picture under the last account I had open. So, if someone where to click on a picture (which has now been deleted), they would see it on grl414. Which would lead them here.

Yikes! My friends, family, colleagues, and clients could find my private thoughts.

I put twitter on lock down. It's private now. But this isn't. So, what's the point in twitter being private?

If someone found me, it's done. If not, then they can't now. So finally, I'm thinking that I will just be very diligent in not posting from grl when I should be posting work stuff.

I like having these open forums. I like to think that my pain might help someone else. I know this isn't just wishful thinking because others' pain has helped me.

I'm still considering outting myself on fb. I just think if one of my friends is going through this, I want to be there for them. (My fb is only my friends.)

Any thoughts? On anything, really.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Wordless Wednesday & Thankful Thursday

I can't believe I forgot to post this yesterday! Regardless, here ya go!

I'm thankful for air conditioning. During the last heat wave, my car's ac broke. It's probably not getting fixed.

Just as I was thinking at least summer is over so I can easily make it through until next summer, another heat wave strikes. And, the ac in my office breaks.

Apparently, I'm kryptonite for air conditioners. But I'm thankful the air conditioner at home is working. :)